Today at this juncture of life, I am brooding over love. I felt during my college study life that I was in love with some one, but could never tell her (say Kundani). Though I could never say her, Kundani was always shadowed over my brain. She was of same age as I am, just to say in the same class. I used to feel very sorry when I used to listen one of my friends that he loved her and he had a photograph of her. I never remarked on these things, nor I became angry on the friend. As I left my college life, she used to remain in my brain, thoughts while doing works etc. By and by I became busy and started forgetting her face during my busy hours. Today I can remember her name very clearly all the times, whenever I think about a girl that she could be my love. But face, I can remember her face when I try hard, yet my brain always consider her my love.
Now see another situation, I came across another girl about three years back. Two years earlier, I started feeling something for this girl (say Mundokani). The pattern is quite different. I could not see any fault in Kundani. But in Mundokani I could see faults. But the intensity of feeling of likeness is almost the same.
Today I have lost contancts with both of them. But I am never in peace. Since I have lost Mundokani recently, her face moves in my thoughts. As soon as she appears, Kundani's name also appears in my brain.
Today I was brooding if Kundani is my real love, what I am doing with Mundokani. Yes, of course, I lost Kundani about 12 to 13 years back, but she did not allow any other lady life to come in my life or brain until Mundokani came. I always now a days ask which one is my real love? If the love for Mundokani is fake, why is there so intense feeling that it overshadows Kundani's thoughts. Today my brain asked what would do if Kundani comes back to me today ans asks to be my partner, will I accept her proposal or try to make Mundokani my partner? A corner of my heart or actually to say, brain immediately replied that it would accept Kundani. Then o! my heart or brain, what are you doing with Mundokani? What is she doing in you?
Next thing that comes in my brain is this - if we think any good or bad or have a feeling of love for someone, does that someone also feel the same for us? If yes, why donot they respond without spoken words. If no, why we do this fruitless love? Perhaps the answer is no, because if answer had been yes, there would not have been so much problems in the world of love.
So I suggest to my brain or heart don't misguide me. Keep silence. Let Kundani and Mundokani live their lives peacefully and happily and let me also live in peace and enjoy my life at present. Please do not bother me with your foolish thought about Kundani and Mundokani.
May God bless both Kundani and Mundokani in their own spheres of lives, which touched my sphere of life at some instant of time but now have separated.
All these thinkings arise another thought in my brain that love is actually a wasteful thought to make us fool.
Now see another situation, I came across another girl about three years back. Two years earlier, I started feeling something for this girl (say Mundokani). The pattern is quite different. I could not see any fault in Kundani. But in Mundokani I could see faults. But the intensity of feeling of likeness is almost the same.
Today I have lost contancts with both of them. But I am never in peace. Since I have lost Mundokani recently, her face moves in my thoughts. As soon as she appears, Kundani's name also appears in my brain.
Today I was brooding if Kundani is my real love, what I am doing with Mundokani. Yes, of course, I lost Kundani about 12 to 13 years back, but she did not allow any other lady life to come in my life or brain until Mundokani came. I always now a days ask which one is my real love? If the love for Mundokani is fake, why is there so intense feeling that it overshadows Kundani's thoughts. Today my brain asked what would do if Kundani comes back to me today ans asks to be my partner, will I accept her proposal or try to make Mundokani my partner? A corner of my heart or actually to say, brain immediately replied that it would accept Kundani. Then o! my heart or brain, what are you doing with Mundokani? What is she doing in you?
Next thing that comes in my brain is this - if we think any good or bad or have a feeling of love for someone, does that someone also feel the same for us? If yes, why donot they respond without spoken words. If no, why we do this fruitless love? Perhaps the answer is no, because if answer had been yes, there would not have been so much problems in the world of love.
So I suggest to my brain or heart don't misguide me. Keep silence. Let Kundani and Mundokani live their lives peacefully and happily and let me also live in peace and enjoy my life at present. Please do not bother me with your foolish thought about Kundani and Mundokani.
May God bless both Kundani and Mundokani in their own spheres of lives, which touched my sphere of life at some instant of time but now have separated.
All these thinkings arise another thought in my brain that love is actually a wasteful thought to make us fool.
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